Written by Hady Aly
Dear beloved one,
I don’t know why I’m writing this now, it’s been 2 months already since Christmas. However, I’ve always had the feeling that I’m alone without you. I know that we talk almost every day through video calls, but believe me, embracing you cannot be compensated, not even by looking at you, talking to you or listening to your soft voice full of passion and youth.
I worked on your advice and tried to immerse myself into diverse activities so that I enjoy life on my own, but I’m telling you, even if I’m laughing on the outside, there’s no entertainment without you. My deepest sorrow is that you’re not here with me sharing these intimate quick seconds of joy and laughter.
Maybe you think I’m not depressed when I talk to you. Maybe my voice doesn’t sound like I am sad, but the truth is that I don’t want you to be sad for me. I miss you so much, and every problem I have with my studies is principal because you’re not there for me when I come back home. I realized that it’s a gift from God when I return home and see the light in the living room and see you sitting there watching TV. I feel safe when I see you.
This is how I feel most of the times. When Christmas comes to an end, I start to think about next Christmas where I get the chance to see you again. I don’t want to depress you too, but all I have to say to you is that it’s just been hard getting by without you. I hope one day we’ll be together and read these letters, laughing at them and wishing that their days would never return.
With sincere love,
your beloved one